About a year or so ago, I started a wellness journey. I was at a point where stress was managing me; I was definitely not managing the stress. I was always tired, burnt out, unhappy with how I felt (and looked), and knew I needed to make a change.
It was this time last year that I started yoga. I can’t tell you how many gym memberships I tried over the years, only sticking with it for a few months or in some cases a few weeks. It seemed overwhelming to me … so many machines, so many perfectly fit and toned people, and so many unrealistic expectations for myself.
I started yoga with the only expectation of the class offering stress relief. I didn’t know much about it, and frankly didn’t do much research beforehand. I heard good things about Radiant Yoga, so I dropped in for a class.
All it took was that one class … I was hooked.
There were so many different types of people in the room, and we were all beginners. All things were equal. I know now that the only person you can compare yourself to in yoga is you; finding your own edge… pushing your own self mentally and physically. Always learning.
For the first time, I learned to let things go. Clear my mind of things I can’t control, and
focus on the things I can. I also learned that I have to earn it. I have to work hard and make an effort every day to take care of myself… physically, mentally, spiritually.
Some days are better than others. Some weeks I miss class, and it sucks. Some weekends I eat nothing but junk … I get in a bad mood, my body feels gross and I know I’ve let myself down.
But then I get back to my practice and on nights like tonight after class, I feel like I’ve truly accomplished something great.
There are things I can do today that I couldn’t imagine doing a year ago. I’ve made a lot of lifestyle changes, and for an entire year have been at least four dress sizes smaller than I used to be. Last night, I got rid of all my old, bigger clothes that I was keeping “just in case” this “new me” didn’t stick.
Now for me, it’s all about progress … not perfection. It’s hard to take note of the progress made when you have so many goals you’re working towards. But I try every once in a while to take a step back and acknowledge just how far I’ve come and remember why I started in the first place.